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For people who do
not believe in or
experience what could be understood as 'god':
Replace the word 'god'
with 'consciousness' or
any other word that
for you could describe a
sense of the mysterious.

"The most beautiful
thing we can experience is
the mysterious. It is the
source of all true art
and all science. He to
whom this emotion is
a stranger, who can
no longer pause to
wonder and stand rapt
in awe, is as good as
dead: his eyes are closed."
Albert Einstein.

ATMAN, JOB AND THE SON OF GOD

In the light of the mirror of you,
the universe is observing itself through consciousness.
Roger Penrose

As mentioned like a mantra on Meditation.dk: Whatever I point at, is for you to verify in your own inner lab. Sit in silence, focus inward, and allow your attention to spiral gently into itself. Such explorations can lead to profound realizations. However, when you return from this inward journey and try to capture the experience in words, confusion often arises. You may search the knowledge bank of mystical experience for suitable language, only to find yourself entangled in conceptual contradictions.
  
A fundamental divergence in spiritual traditions lies at the heart of this chapter: Buddhist schools generally reject the notion of an individual soul, emphasizing instead the concept of anatta (non-self), while Indian Vedantic and Christian traditions affirm a divine presence or ‘entity’—whether as ātman, the eternal self, or the soul made in God's image.
Personally, I find inspiration in the Vedantic and Christian perspectives—not because they offer definitive truths, but because they resonate more deeply with my direct experience. Despite their vast differences, both traditions recognize a reflection of the divine within the human being, portraying us as microcosmic expressions—‘monads’—of a greater cosmic intelligence.
 
But before we fall into endless debates about whether there is a soul, a God, or something beyond both, it is essential to recognize that language and concepts are often the true culprits of this confusion. Words inevitably fail when tasked with describing something fundamentally beyond language.
 
Therefore, I urge you to be brave enough to find your own concepts. Trust your experience and express it in a way that feels true to you—without leaning too heavily on established vocabulary. Let my writing inspire you, but do not follow it as your truth.
 
And when you do find your own language, keep it light. Let your words be signposts, not anchors. Let them point the way, but never mistake them for the experience itself.

"Theologicans may quarrel, but the Mystics
of the world speak the same language."
Meister Eckhart

Primordial Pan-Consciousness
Let me now introduce my intuitive, fleeting and though experice coined understanding of consciousness, aided by Occam's Razor:
 
A primordial pan-consciousness appears to permeate time and space as a shadow mirror of structural matter. This ubiquitous consciousness is what I refer to as 'God.' However, this God is not self-aware in the sense we typically imagine. It is a pure, pervasive awareness, present but not yet conscious of itself.
 
Let me offer a brief example. Have you ever woken up at night, suddenly realizing that you had been conscious during sleep, yet you were not aware of being conscious at the time? It is a peculiar kind of awareness—subtle and pervasive, but without self-recognition.
 
If that seems abstract, consider this simpler analogy: Imagine a loud and persistant hum from a minibar fridge in a hotel room. You do not notice the sound at first, but when the fridge suddenly stops, you become instantly aware that you had been hearing it all along. The awareness was always present, but it had remained just outside the reach of conscious recognition.
 
These examples point to a simple, primordial consciousness—one that is present yet unaware of itself. As an attempt to organize my own life experiences in a meaningful way, I postulate this consciousness as an omnipresent mirroring of all physical matter in space-time—a vast but dim light lacking self-awareness. It reflects everything that manifests as solid and structured, yet it remains blind to its own existence.
 
This primordial consciousness is eternal, a locationless location—beyond time and space, a higher-dimensional being that transcends the constraints of our reality. Yet, when it 'enters' the manifest world, it does not do so uniformly. Instead, it follows matter like a mirror-shadow, subtly entwined with its unfolding presence.

As matter evolves into more complex structures, this consciousness does not merely accompany it—it intensifies, both in quality and quantity. The greater the complexity, the more refined and concentrated its reflective capacity becomes. In this way, primordial consciousness does not emerge from matter, but rather condenses and sharpens in parallel with its increasing structural intricacy.
 
No matter how intense or concentrated this primordial consciousness becomes, it still lacks the capacity to aware itself. It reflects, it permeates, it mirrors existence—but it does not see itself. Like a vast cosmic eye that remains open yet blind to its own gaze, it exists as an unconscious illumination, present in all things yet unable to step outside itself to recognize its own presence.
As a quantum poet, I would dare to write: It is this primordial consciousness that collapses the wave-function into matter—or perhaps it is the other way around.

This pan-psychic 'God' is, at its primordial core, neither human nor of worldly nature. It interacts with space-time, yet it does so as a a visitor from a higher dimension—one in which our world is merely embedded. My deepest intuition, shaped by subjective experience, suggests that this presence exists in a dimension beyond cognition, beyond even what we conceive as existence itself.

In this higher realm, what we call ‘God’—or, in Meister Eckhart’s terms, the 'Godhead'—dwells in a darkness beyond time and space. This is not the anthropomorphic deity of religious doctrine but something far more elusive: a primordial aware presence that belongs to a layer of existence  far removed from our familiar dimensions and hence also understandings.
 
Thus, we will never fully explain consciousness, for we remain bound by cognitive faculties shaped by time-space evolution—not for the purpose of grasping our own infinite origin, but for navigating the constraints of time and space. Our cognitive minds are designed for survival, not for unraveling the groundless ground of awareness itself.
   
It is, as Eckhart describes, the 'Ground of the Soul'—the silent, pre-conceptual mirror in which all that exists is reflected, the source from which even our cosmological constants emerge. 
  
In summary, consciousness is not a 'thing'—not an object we can dissect or measure. It is a higher dimensional stage on which all things appear and interact, the backdrop against which reality unfolds. In its essence, consciousness is primordial, preceding and transcending all things that arise within it.
 
Now, let me set the stage for the next section with a simple yet profound question: Does a dog know that it is a dog? And what about humans?

ATMAN: A SPACE-TIME COPY OF A HIGHER-DIMENSIONAL BRAHMAN
In India, since ancient times the individual human soul has been called Atman. The universal 'soul' or consciousness was termed Brahman. In this context it would give meaning to view Atman as a brain derived simulacra of the pan-consciousness existing prior to brains as focal lenses. Pan consciousness reflects as closer to ding an sich another dimension where such terms from time and space does not give any meaning. In this context, I envision Atma-consciousness as a space-time mirror-copy of a visitor from another dimension, completely foreign to four-dimensional stage. Individual human 'made' consciousness can be compared to a soap bubble, whose thin and ultra-transient membrane reflects the sky.

In this sense only Atman is the experiental knower of Brahman in Atman. Atman is Job and from here he evolves into the 'innerstanding' son of God. Here Meister Eckhart is not so far from the Hindu-philosophy. He was scrutinized by the Inquisition for several of his teachings. One of the propositions attributed to him and later condemned by Pope John XXII in 1329 was: "Whatever is true of divine nature is true of every being, and conversely, whatever is true of the nature of beings is true of the divine nature." This statement reflects Eckhart's belief in the profound unity between God and creation, suggesting that the divine essence is present within all humans.

Atman in Brahman - Brahman in Atman

IN MAN, 'GOD' BECOMES CONSCIOUSLY SELF-AWARE
The real journey, at least for me as a complex, self-referential biological being, lies in the unique ability to become consciously aware of the primordial omni-consciousness. In my interpretation, this marks the first loop of self-conscious awareness—a moment that begins at dawn, when the first awakening realizes it has been awake all along.
 
This journey began with the evolution of biological life capable of self-referentiality. In highly advanced mammals, the intricate organization of matter enables self-referential feedback loops, allowing consciousness itself to spiral into self-awareness. This biological roar of feedback has, by now, reached a temporary culmination in the human brain—a structure so complex that it can generate more possible neural information-combinations than there are particles in the known universe.
 
Yet, the first time humans achieved self-consciousness, it appears they did not recognize consciousness itself. Instead, like Adam and Eve, they became aware of their own fragility, their separateness, their limitations. The mirror turned against the mirror but could not see itself clearly—clouded by human subjectivity. At first, it was merely a human seeing itself, not yet a mirror reflecting a mirror, reflecting a mirror.

When Consciousness Discovers Itself 
Now, let us read the following lines from Meister Eckhart with this perspective in mind—that the ‘God’ he speaks of could be understood as the first primordial consciousness:

"I am certain
as I live that nothing is so close to me as God.
God is nearer to me than I am to my own self;
my life depends upon God's being near me,
present in me.
 
So is he also in a stone, a log of wood,
only they do not know it.

If the wood knew of God and realized his nearness
like the highest of the angels does,
then the log would be as blessed as the chief of all angels."
Meister Eckhart

This is precisely the miracle unfolding in deep meditation. In the self-reflective loop of introspection, awareness does not grasp this knowing intellectually—it does not "understand" in the cognitive sense, but rather "innerstands." In this state of direct recognition, we become blessed, as the Meister describes, not through faith or belief but through an undeniable, lived experience of divine presence.

It is in this spirit that C.G. Jung suggests Job, like the Nordic god Balder, is a forerunner of the Son of God. What, then, is Christ? He is the one in whom the dim, scattered light of primordial consciousness is gathered, magnified, and turned back upon its source—the moment when awareness fully beholds itself in consciousness:

"From the moment when Christ's soul and body were united with the Godhead his soul has been gazing at the Godhead as it is doing to this day."
Meister Eckhart

This is the return loop of consciousness, the moment when the mirror becomes consciously aware of itself, when the knower and the known dissolve into one seamless gaze. Here, with the Meisters words, the knowing is the same as the knower himself.
  
Job is Greater than God
C.G. Jung posits that after the trials of Job, God was compelled to manifest as man. In this view, the Son of God represents nothing less than the weak yet omnipresent light of God, focused and intensified through the narrow pinhole of the complex, self-referential human brain. Through grateful acceptance of human suffering, the brain of Job becomes a magnifying glass, concentrating the otherwise dim divine light into something far more brilliant and distinct.

In this vein, a human being can be seen as a reflection of God—yet, paradoxically, this reflection surpasses the original. Through the experience of human self-awareness, God achieves a higher, more concentrated realization of Himself through His 'Son'—a divine spark reflected and intensified in the mirror of human consciousness.
 
The Copy Surpasses the Original
In contemporary times, many intellectual circles have entertained the notion that our reality might be a simulation. This concept is often interpreted as a simulacrum—a degraded copy of an original, a "fall" from perfection. Such thinking echoes an ancient mythological theme that humanity has strayed from a primordial state of grace and must strive to return to it. This archetypal belief can be traced from the Indian concept of Kali Yuga to the story of Adam and Eve’s fall from Eden.

However, I propose an alternative view—one that turns this notion upside-down. What if, rather than a fall, this reality represents a vital evolution? What if suffering and separation from perfection are not signs of decay but the birth pangs of something greater?

Here, in the crucible of suffering, something entirely new is born: the loop of knowing knowing knowing. This self-reflective awareness—where consciousness becomes aware of itself—is the miracle of human life. It is the very process through which God, through man, surpasses His original form.

Thus, rather than lamenting a lost perfection, we might celebrate this unfolding spiral of awareness as the birth of something far more profound: an infinite feedback loop of self-recognition, where the divine becomes more deeply and truly itself through each turn of conscious reflection. In this spirit I read the following quote:

God needs me as much as I need him.
Meister Eckhart


I know that without me, 
God cannot live an instant.
Angelus Silesius 1624–1677

The black hole of the Soul
When the human created space-time created simulacra consciousness in such a loop begins to chase its own tail, wakefulness accelerates in intensity. It can be illustrated by the acceleration of gravity and breakdown of traditional natural laws that happens in front of a black hole. I do believe this is more than a mere analogy. The cosmos is consisting of reuse of mathematical algorithms on all levels from the infinite small to the infinite big. We are in this sense a mini galaxy with a black hole in our soul. We fear the hole as death and at the same time we are attracted to its attraction. The brain-derived possibility of Atma-consciousness in feed-back singularity falls in love with the grand attractor abiding in ding an sich. This is the needle point where death and life meet in a dance room beyond time and space as we know it.

This is what Meditation is all about: to make Atma-consciousness aware of Brahma-consciousness in an expanding self-referential loop with the potential capacity to end in a singular state of explosive conscious not-understanding.
In this context, the following statement from Meister Eckhart gives 'sense':

In unknowing knowing shall we know God.

Eckhart rarely uses the the term consciousness. Among the Western mystics, the singular state of consciousness has been termed 'God'. God is in my view nothing but a projective concept of a rare state of being within man's own event horizon. God abides in a concentrated form in the complexity of the human brain as super consciousnes.

Let us sum up. The 'variability' of consciousness is, at its core is a result of the complex human brains ability to enter an intensified state of self referentiality. The first looped stage is when consciouness becomes aware of itself in wakefulness.
 
Mystics from all times and places have experienced something that so far have been out of reach of comon man, occupied as he was with the algoritms of survival.

God is greater than God