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MEDITATIVE PIXELLATION
Exploring Inner Sensations through Conscious Awareness
'Out beyond
ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase 'each other'
doesn’t make any sense.
Rumi
Eyes Wide Shut
The most fundamental meditation technique is also the
simplest: closing your eyes while remaining fully awake. Within
this effortless act lies a profoundly important realization—one
that does not require striving, only surrender to presence.
The instant you close your eyes, a subtle yet transformative
shift occurs: the body’s myriad sensations rise into conscious
awareness, revealing a vast inner landscape that is always
present but rarely noticed. This shift happens suddenly, almost
startlingly, illuminating a sensory world that has long existed
in the background, quietly sustaining us, waiting to be seen, to
be recognized by consciousness.
Try it now. Close your eyes for a moment. Feel the gentle pulsing of your
heartbeat. Notice the faint warmth spreading through your hands.
Sense the subtle tension resting in your shoulders. These
sensations have always been there, yet they often fade into the
background of daily life. What unfolds in that silent space
behind closed eyes is not emptiness, but presence.
To explore this more deeply, engage in a simple yet revealing
exercise: close and open your eyes in 30-second intervals,
shifting awareness inward and outward repeatedly. Observe what
changes. Notice how perception subtly alters with each
transition—how the external world immediately asserts itself
when your eyes are open, while the moment they close, a
different, often neglected reality begins to emerge.
Through this rhythmic alternation, we can start to discern the
boundary—one that is not rigid but fluid—between outer-directed
consciousness and the vast, silent field of awareness beneath
it.
The Hidden Landscape of Awareness
Consciousness is
typically blind to the awareness that underlies it. We do
not register what we are subtly aware of—unless something
disrupts the pattern. Ordinarily, we perceive only a fraction of
the body’s dynamic sensory flow, while beneath consciousness, a
vast current of sensations hums—subtle yet powerful, like an
unseen river beneath perception.
In this unconscious realm, a chorus of voices emerges—not in
harmony, but in discord, each carrying its own rhythm and tone.
Closing your eyes grants conscious access to this hidden
vibrancy, making the once-unnoticed sensory world suddenly
tangible.
A refrigerator hums in the
background—unnoticed until it stops. In that moment of silence,
you suddenly consciously realize you were aware of it all along.
Similarly, body parts that function perfectly often escape our
conscious attention—until something goes wrong. If you injure
your foot, it immediately demands full awareness. The same
applies to our conflicting inner personalities. They dwell in
the realm of primordial awareness, operating beneath the surface
of consciousness. Yet, the moment they exert pressure—like a
tightening grip—we become acutely aware of their constant
presence within us.
This reveals a fundamental
paradox: we are constantly aware of our body, yet largely
unconscious of that awareness. While consciousness is only drawn
to novelty and disruption, awareness has two modes: Like
consciousness, awareness is instinctually attuned to detecting
sudden changes. However, it also harbors a deep undercurrent
that operates in a state of continuous immediacy, effortlessly
perceiving and holding what remains constant. Here it operates
in a continuous, effortless flow, holding and perceiving the
steady rhythms of cellular existence.
The Limits of Language:
Consciousness Beyond Expansion
I am not a quantum physicist, but I dare to postulate that the
ouroboic space—unlike the external Newtonian space—is closer
to a
quantum space. Consciousness itself is the primordial ground
where quantum fields of superposition unfold. With this
intuition fresh in mind, we can return to Tony Woody’s account
of the exploding Pepsi can, where thousands of Pepsi droplets
did not merely appear before him—they became him.
This is why vocabulary borrowed from the quantum world feels, at
least intuitively, more fitting. Terms like superposition,
entanglement, and non-locality gesture toward realities that
transcend classical logic, hinting at the elusive, paradoxical
nature of consciousness. Yet even these concepts—groundbreaking
as they are—fall short. They are, after all, still rooted in the
descriptive models of the very universe that consciousness
upholds.
The crux of this limitation lies in a simple yet profound truth:
consciousness is primordial. It is not a phenomenon within the
universe, but the very ground from which the universe arises.
Consciousness is eo ipso—self-evident, self-originating, and
foundational. It precedes the quantum field, the fabric of
space-time, and any conceptual framework we attempt to impose
upon it.
Because consciousness is the condition for all perception and
understanding, it cannot be fully contained within the
structures it upholds. Trying to describe consciousness from
within the universe it makes possible is akin to asking a mirror
to reflect itself without an object before it. The reflection
requires a medium, yet consciousness is both the medium and the
reflection—simultaneously the canvas and the painting, the
silence and the song.
However, as mentioned often on this site, this limitation does not mean we should abandon the
attempt. On the contrary, the very act of trying brings us
closer to what
Emanuel Kant referred to as the Ding an sich—the
'thing-in-itself.' Though we are inevitably confined to
experiencing reality through the lens of the 'Ding für uns'—the
'thing-for-us,' filtered through perception and
cognition—there remains an innate drive to reach beyond these
boundaries. This striving is not futile; it is the evolutionary
pulse of consciousness itself, folding back to recognize its own
essence.
Each metaphor, each fragment of language, is like the enigmatic
footprints of the Buddha. Even when words fall short, they point, they hint,
they gesture toward the ineffable. Perhaps that is their highest
function—not to capture reality, but to remind us of its
vastness.
In this spirit, we continue to define consciousness in an
impossible dance with it. To articulate the inarticulable. To
stand, however briefly, in awe of the fact that we can even ask
the question.
MEDITATIVE 'PIXELLATION'
Consciously resting in innocent body-awareness—always
catching sensations, feelings, and emotions before they capture
us—can ultimately lead to a process I term 'meditative
pixellation'. It is
the the process of breaking down awareness into finer and
finer sensory details though the power of by will directed
consciousness.
Meditative pixellation is the process of deconstructing all
inner experiences—emotions, sensations, and thoughts—into raw,
neutral micro-perceptions, beyond conceptual interpretation.
By zooming in on the microtextures of our inner
world, we move beyond identity and enter the realm of direct,
felt experience. This allows us to consciously aware reality as it is, unfiltered
by the mind’s habitual narratives.
Imagine a digital image. As you zoom in closer and closer, the
picture gradually dissolves into pixels, losing its original
meaning. Similarly, as you become more attuned to consciously
perceiving the myriad sensations within your body, you gain the
ability to move beyond the conceptual barriers imposed by naming
and labeling. In this abstract, primal reality, distinctions and
boundaries dissolve. We become part of a fluid continuum—a
boundless, pixelated existence. Just as a high-resolution image
dissolves into pixels when magnified, our inner world loses its
conditioned interpretations when examined closely. Sensations
once labeled as ‘anger,’ ‘joy,’ or ‘fear’ become abstract,
vibrating micro-perceptions, —just pure
presence.
Pixels Are Neither Bad Nor Good
"There is nothing either
good or bad, but thinking makes it so."
Shakespeare Hamlet, Act 2, Scene 2.
Just as every digital image—whether a portrait of Jesus or
the devil—is fundamentally composed of the same neutral pixels,
so too are our sensations, feelings, and emotions. Magnified
beyond their conditioned interpretations, all experiences
dissolve into raw, vibrating sensory phenomena. When you zoom
into an image, you no longer see beauty or ugliness, meaning or
narrative—you see neutral dots. The same is true of our
emotions: zoom in, and they dissolve into pure, pulsing sensory
energy, stripped of judgment.
Rumi’s ‘field beyond right and wrong’ invites us to a realm
where distinctions dissolve—where perception, stripped of
judgment, becomes raw, direct, and unfiltered. This is precisely
what happens when we zoom into the microstructure of experience
itself: the world dissolves into pure sensation, much like an
image disintegrating into pixels when magnified.
As Rumi suggests, in that field beyond ideas and language, even
the notion of ‘each other’ ceases to make sense. The sharp edges
of identity, duality, and separation blur into the vast openness
of raw perception.
Tathata - Suchness
This state of ‘pixelation’ aligns with what Buddhist
traditions call ‘tathata’—suchness, the direct experience
of things as they are, unmediated by thought or concept. By
sensing our inner body free from concepts—so intimately that all
we perceive is the continuous flow of micro-sensations—we begin
to 'innerstand' that sensations and feelings are neither
inherently good nor bad.
Beyond the wall of naming and judgment, pain and pleasure lose
their conventional distinctions. The need for evaluation
dissolves, leaving no space or function for thoughts to navigate
this terrain.
Through this process, the first layer of mental interpretation
dissolves. The body’s inner sensory space ceases to be a stage
for emotional drama and instead reveals itself as a field of
super-aware microdots of 'something'—pure suchness, free from
conventional narrative entanglement.
When feelings and emotions are perceived on the level of pixels,
they lose their capacity to be hijacked by elaborate thought
dramas. In this sense, the pixel-state is innocent, untouched by
the habitual loops of mental storytelling. Here, sensations
remain raw and direct, free from the cognitive hooks that
otherwise entangle them in the world of thought.
Let me offer a brief example. A group of us once sat watching a
sunset in the Himalayas. Some remained in silent awe, absorbed
in the golden light. Others let out soft murmurs—an "ohh"
or an "ahh"—while a few whispered, "It’s beautiful,"
or, "It looks like gold." Then, one man broke the
moment’s spell: "This reminds me of a sunset back in Denmark
when we got drunk and argued about politics. Speaking of
politics, what’s your take on the prime minister?"
The moment had vanished. The sunset was no longer a direct
experience—it had become a backdrop for personal narratives, a
springboard for unrelated thoughts. This is how the mind pulls
us away from presence, weaving stories instead of allowing us to
simply be.
This example illustrates how easily the mind can be pulled out
of a raw, sensed experience into the world of narratives and
thought spirals. The man’s comment transformed a moment of
direct sensory awe into a mental rabbit hole of unrelated and
disembodied
stories and opinions, distancing him and others from the present
reality of the sunset.
'Ahh'-Sensing the Warmth of Light
The pixel-state invites us to remain present, anchored in the
raw sensations themselves, without allowing thoughts to spiral
into distracting narratives.
This is the simple path to inner freedom: be consciously aware
of yourself—know and 'aha-aware' thyself—not as a detached observer
but as a non-judgmental senser in awe. This is, in fact, the
'ohh' or 'ahh'-state. It is not about seeing the
light, which implies separation and dual distance, but about
experiencing its warmth in subject-object union. To truly sense
the light is to feel its presence intimately, dissolving the
barriers that divide perception and sensed being.
Within this inner world, dualities fade. There is no "observer"
in the conventional sense, but rather an "ahh-senser," intimately
embedded in the experience itself—fully immersed in pure
conscious awareness.
The pixel-state invites us to stay
present, intimate anchored in raw sensation, without thoughts pulling us
into narratives. This is the simple path to inner freedom: to
know and ‘aha-aware’ oneself—not as a distant observer, but as a
direct experiencer of life. It is not about seeing the light
from afar, but about feeling its warmth dissolve into you, until
there is no ‘you’ left to separate from it.
Pixels as
'Energy'
When we step into what I call the Rumian grass field, the
conditioned labels of pleasant and unpleasant dissolve. Yet
something remains—something alive, dynamic, and flowing. At this
level, words still hold some value, though they are stripped of
conventional meaning. For simplicity, I will metaphorically call
this 'energy'.
What we once labeled pain—before bringing it into the light of
conscious awareness—now reveals itself as a fluid, morphing,
pixelated stream of sensation. Just as particles in quantum
physics are ultimately forms of frozen energy or light, the
building blocks of our inner experience appear as liquid
wave-like movements of energy. However, these are merely poetic
metaphors, inspired by a quantum world that I can only speculate
about. The real invitation is not to theorize but to aha-sense the ever-changing nature of our inner reality without
the need for preconditioned definitions.
While terms like 'pixels' and 'energy' are still fundamentally
thoughts, they lack the structure required to evolve into
narrative storytelling and, more importantly, do not spiral into
the drama-filled rabbit holes of mental reality. Instead, they
stay closer to the simple, raw, and unembellished impressions
they represent.
Beyond the, in this sense, barren terms of 'pixels' and
'energy,' there lies an intriguing observation: the deeper one
ventures into this abstract realm of inner energies, the more
energized and rejuvenated one feels afterward. This might
explain why Eastern traditions coined the term 'prana,' equating
it with life-energy—the subtle, vital force flowing through and
sustaining us.
However, I deliberately choose not to use that term here, as it
has been heavily monopolized by Eastern thought and comes with a
set of cultural associations that could distract from the path I
wish to point out. My aim is to stay rooted in a direct,
experiential understanding, free from preconceived notions tied
to established traditions.
The Challenge
For anyone willing to explore the inner world of sensations
and feelings through courageous introspection, here is the
challenge:
Any sensation, feeling, or emotion—no matter how pleasant or
unpleasant it seems—will ultimately dissolve into pure, neutral
'energy' for the one who continues to observe it with
vigilant innocent conscious awareness.
State of Simple & Sensed Amor Fati
In this pixelating state of
observation, focus solely on the phenomenon of awaring in itself,
without attempting to change or eliminate sensations through
mental strategies. Resist the temptation to weave stories around
them. The key lies in mentally ignoring the age-old instinctual
urge to 'do' something—especially in response to unpleasant
sensations—while offering them your full, non-cognitive
conscious attention.
Ignore Yourself in full Conscious Awareness
This form of non-doing meditation emphasizes the direct
encounter between your innocent 'aha' awareness and the
interoceptive sensations themselves. You become passive yet
present, ignoring yourself while simultaneously giving yourself
full, undivided conscious attention. This state can be called a
state of simple sensed amor fati—a loving acceptance of
what is, exactly as it is.
THE SECRET LIFE OF OUR BODY
We are now ready to embark on a journey into the secret life
of our own body. With the torchlight of consciousness, we will
explore the largely unknown landscapes of our inner biological
beingness. With each passing minute, day, month, and year, we
deepen our mastery of this practice. It is truly an art in which
we are both the artist and the masterpiece.
Socrates' famous words, "To know thyself is the beginning of
wisdom," take on a new meaning in this context—one that
invites us to become intimately familiar with the subtle energy
formations within our body.
At the core of this exploration lies the axis mundi of pixelated
energy, running from the base of the spine to the top of the
head. Along this torso-axis are key hotspots where energies can surge,
sometimes becoming difficult to contain in neutral conscious
awareness due to their intensity. These energies may
traditionally labeled as negative, manifest as discomfort,
offensiveness, anger, or anxiety.
You may wonder, Why engage with these energies? Why not simply
suppress or control them? The answer is simple: the more
unpleasantness you can hold and digest within your conscious
field of awareness, the greater your capacity for emotional
healing and bodily intelligence becomes.
We feel to heal, but only when we do not story tell this field.
Through this process, we come to 'innerstand' ourselves more deeply,
developing the courage of a warrior to hunt and consume what we
once labeled as 'negative' life-energies within our body’s inner
animal kingdom. Instead of rejecting or repressing these
energies, we absorb and integrate them, transforming what once
felt overwhelming into a source of strength and wisdom.
This is the path of embodied self-discovery.
Biochemical Sensing
Instead of Known Feelings
Take any feeling, especially one that is fresh and
prominent under this pixellating magnifying glass. If time and space allow, lie down and examine it
closely. It could be a cluster of fear tightening the stomach or
a tension constricting the throat. When contemplating someone
you love, you might feel warmth radiating from the chest or a
pleasant lightness spreading throughout the body. Notice the
sensation of lightness when feeling happy—how it subtly
manifests in different areas of your body.
Now, as you step into the anatomical landscape of these
so-called familiar emotions, you may uncover a profoundly simple
truth: behind the culturally and linguistically defined labels
of anger, joy, jealousy, love, offense, or well-being lie
abstract biochemical sensations rooted in various locations of
the inner body. What I refer to as energy is nothing more than
biochemical sensory phenomena displayed on the interoceptive
stage of awareness. And, as I’ve repeated like a mantra, all we
do in meditation is add the light of pure consciousness to this
inner experience.
In reality, what
we think of as familiar emotions are, when broken down into
their core components, spatially expanded electrochemical energy
phenomena.
Let us revisit the previously mentioned images of Jesus and the
Devil as a metaphor. Before we begin to magnify these images
into pure pixelation, there exists an intermediary field where
we can still perceive forms, shapes, and clusters of colors.
Similarly, in the inner world of emotions, there is a state of
observation where our named feelings—such as anger, pride, or
joy—shed their traditional identification markers and stand
before us as clusters of sensations with distinct qualities,
textures, and shapes.
At this level of perception, it also becomes easier to spatially
locate where these energy phenomena are experienced within the
body. Love may manifest as warmth in the chest, anxiety as
tightness in the gut, or offense as a burning sensation in the
throat.
The key to transforming our emotional landscape lies in moving
beyond conceptual labels and directly feeling these raw,
pixelated clusters of sensations. By doing so, you shift from
reacting to your emotions as fixed stories to experiencing them
as dynamic, ever-changing energy flows within your body’s
sensory landscape.
In this pixelated state, emotions and feelings lose their
habitual instinctual pathways.
Imagine a person or situation that has made you unhappy. When
you attentively and meditatively look inward, you'll discover
that what your mind interprets as 'unhappiness' is actually a
sensory phenomenon within your own body. You may feel a knot in
your solar plexus, accompanied by butterflies or a sensation
akin to jellyfish in your stomach. If you are not present at
this moment, you'll start engaging in a dialogue between your
burning jellyfish-self and your thinking self. These two will
create a feedback loop that, if you're not careful, becomes your
unending re-enforcing narrative. This narrative becomes your
reality—a reality where you live and jump around like a frog at the bottom of a well
rather than getting the over-view as a free bird in the sky.
Consider this simple experiment: The next time you feel
irritated or angry at someone, resist the impulse to focus your
mental energy on crafting a cutting reply. Instead, turn inward
and investigate what is happening inside your body. Notice the
electrical tension or tightness in your gut or throat. If you
bring conscious awareness to these sensations, it is almost
certain that your reaction will change.
However, this is not an easy task. The more prone we are to
anger, the less consciously aware we tend to be in those
moments.
To move beyond the conceptual wall and fully reside in the world
of sensed clusters requires patience and practice. It is a
journey of a lifetime—a gradual peeling away of layers until you
no longer live in the world of stories but in the reality of
direct, embodied experience.
Every Energy Bundle Represents a Distinct Bio-Operative System
The next step in life is to consciously explore the energy
formations within various parts of your body. For example, allow
your inner conscious light to merge with the awareness in your
hands as they rest on your stomach. Notice how the awareness in
your hands and stomach begin to blend into a unified sensation.
You might feel something akin to the famous “butterflies” in
your stomach—tickling, crawling, burning, nervous, or electric
energy. These sensations often resemble pain. Let them flow
freely and integrate with the more neutral energy ball in your
hands, allowing both areas to harmonize.
As discussed in the chapter
Consciousness & Evolution, the human
body is a living archive of remodified and recycled genetic
information stretching back to the beginning of life.
A friend once told me that during both of his LSD experiences,
he felt as though there was a hostile, meat-eating plant
residing in his stomach. To me, this indicates that his stomach
was not happy and had been unable to communicate its
discomfort—until the psychedelically tuned brain gave it a voice
in the form of dream-like symbols.
Each body part, each organ, and even clusters of organs possess
their own unique energy signature. These distinct energy bundles
form the wordless language through which our ancient biological
systems attempt to communicate with us. The vast majority of
these systems do not understand verbal language or cognition.
Therefore, we must meet them on their own terms, engaging with
them through direct sensory awareness.
The Shapes and Movements of Inner Sensory Patterns
These internal, abstract sensory shapes consist of bundles
of electrochemical energy that continuously fluctuate in myriad
forms and variations. They are unique to each individual and
each moment, evolving in response to both the external
environment and our thought processes. These sensory patterns
can feel constricted or expanded and typically have distinct
locations, shapes, and dimensions.
A sensory pattern may extend its tendrils into the arms, legs,
or head, but its core generally resides within the torso. Think
of the torso as the “Rome” of our inner body—a central hub from
which countless “sensory pattern civilizations” extend their
pathways, stretching from the sphincter muscle up to the top of
the head and outward into the limbs. These abstract energy
patterns often manifest as independent entities with a central
core and tentacle-like projections that traverse the body's
inner ocean.
As we become more familiar with these ancient operative systems,
we discover that different “zoological” sensory patterns belong
to different regions of the body. For example, some might
resemble writhing serpents, others like pulsating jellyfish,
each with its own rhythm, intensity, and form.
Naming the Inner Phenomena
One might argue that assigning names to internal experiences
risks falling into the trap of thought-based storytelling.
Indeed, if we begin creating narratives, dramas, or
identities—especially victim identities—we risk losing the
purity of direct experience. However, fresh metaphorical naming,
when used as a tool rather than a crutch, can serve as a bridge
for consciousness to explore new inner territories.
This is because while the ancient bio-operative systems within
us do not understand logic, some of the more recently evolved
systems are attuned to symbolic thinking—as seen in the
LSD-induced vision of a meat-eating plant. Before words became
tools of rationality, they existed as sounds and symbols, acting
as a bridge between sensory experience and meaning.
Of course these homegrown symbols can act as a new mental trap
for ego-identification. I must admit it did so for me on my
journey inwards. However, used wisely they can act as symbolic anchors, guiding us
deeper into uncharted realms of our internal landscape without
dragging us into narrative distractions. The key is to use these
metaphors lightly, allowing them to serve as helpful signposts
rather than definitive labels. When used wisely, they enhance
our capacity to engage with the hidden sensory life within us,
bringing conscious awareness to the ancient and ever-evolving
bio-operative systems that sustain our being.
THE INNER MORPHING
If an anthropologist visits a Stone Age tribe that has never had
contact with modern civilization, the tribe will change
irreversibly the moment that contact is made. It will never be
the same tribe again, and there is little possibility of
returning to its original state. The same is true when you
consciously visit your own body.
Conscious awareness profoundly affects the inner zoo of energy
systems residing within us. As we bring conscious awareness to
these inner creatures, they begin to morph and transform. This
process is a journey of self-discovery, where the rigid
constructs of our inner world melt into fluid, dynamic patterns.
As we descend into deeper levels of life, these energy systems
begin to shift their configurations. They no longer remain static
but begin to evolve, almost like plants responding to sunlight.
Through personal
observation, you may notice how these sensory patterns
evolve—from being rigid and fixed to moving in slow, sweeping
motions, much like seaweed gently swaying in the ocean. This
transformation from static to dynamic patterns depends entirely
on the quality and intensity of the conscious awareness with
which you engage them. It is the sheer presence of warm
vigilance—wordless and fundamental—that nudges these patterns
into a state of flux.
In fact, there are two distinct morphic phenomena at play here.
The first is a natural, ongoing process that has been present
all along. The energies within your body were already in motion,
slowly morphing and shifting beneath your conscious radar. The
only difference now is that you have become aware of
them—similar to how you become aware of the fridge's hum only
when it stops. This is a simple realization: you are now
conscious of what has always been happening in the background.
The second phenomenon, however, is directly initiated by the
pure light of consciousness and the healing water of awareness.
When these two forces are consciously applied, the energy
signatures begin to grow, shift, and morph at a noticeably
faster and more intense pace. This dynamic process of
accelerated transformation is precisely the meaning behind the
previously mentioned quotation:
"Where the attention goes, the prana (life-energy) flows."
The Inner Blocks
As we begin to
consciously aware this inner body flow, we’ll inevitably notice areas
that resist movement. These blocked parts often correlate with
muscular tensions, held tightly within the body. In our normal
outward-focused state of consciousness, we remain largely
unaware of these tensions. Yet, as soon as these rigid areas
collide with the enhanced flow in the more resistance-free
rivers of energy within us, we become painfully aware of their
presence.
The key is to persist in gently awaring these unpleasant blocks.
With time and patience, they will begin to dissolve, much like
ice melting in the sun.
The Tibetans, with their profound wisdom, offer a beautiful
metaphor for this process. They liken the human experience to
that of an ice-body filled with energetic blocks. Through the
tantric practice of
tummo—the
cultivation of inner heat—this rigid, frozen state gradually
melts into a flowing water-body, symbolizing liberated energy in fluid
conscious awareness.
William Blake, in his poetic genius, also speaks to this
transformative phenomenon:
"If the doors of
perception were cleansed,
everything would appear to man as it is: infinite."
William Blake
Blake's insight echoes the Tibetan
perspective, reminding us that the infinite oneness of conscious
awareness is always present, waiting to be revealed through the
melting away of inner barriers and the cleansing of perception.
When we dissolve the frozen constructs within, what emerges is
the boundless flow of life itself.
THE INFINITE ONENESS OF CONSCIOUS AWARENESS
Now what reveals itself on
the level of identity when we
continue to pixellate ourselves into abstract sensations of energy
in the ever ongoing process of melting inner blocks of
resistance?
As we enter deeper levels of
conscious awareness the various clusters of pixels seem to exchange into a common currency, a united
abstraction leading into a world with less and less names and
forms. Metaphorically we could say that we have reached back to
the primordial ground of stardust. Hence energy, not even
confined to signatures or clusters becomes more and
more relevant as a 'lingua franca'.
In the next little session I invite you to observe and explore the
sensations coming from the surface of the skin in your hands.
Now fold your hands and close your eyes once more for a while.
After coming back: Did you notice
that the skin borders between your hands seem to disappear when
the energy, as a ball of oneness, makes the hands merge into
each other? Our external senses tend to divide everything, while
the internal senses, at least as experienced on a subjective
level, seem to unify everything. As perhaps the
most close and intimate sense, the
mechanism of skin
sensationing seems to be able to do both. As you sit with closed
eyes, observe how the exteroceptive skin sensations of sitting,
the places where you are in contact with the pillow or chair,
seem to blur into oneness. This oneness also includes the
interoceptive sensations of the inner body in the same area.
There seems to be an evolutionary link between outer skin
sensations in a given body area and an enhanced ability to feel
the deeper 'energies' emerging from the organic life beneath the
skin.
Now is that not amazing how much we can 'learn' or rather
unlearn from just simple observations of hands holding hands?
Close your eyes again for a few minutes and verify again for
yourself how 'awaring' hands in hands plays out in your inner laboratory. Remember to base
your meditation practice on what you yourself are able to
verify, not on what I or others say to you. In meditation, we
get inspired from outside, but we only follow the voice(s) from
inside.
Let me, in this
context, make a claim for you to test: Just by the very act of
closing our eyes, we unify ourselves and, through that, the
world. This simple act is the beginning of the doors of
perception being cleansed, leading to life becoming infinite. By
holding your own hands, you make peace with yourself in the
morphing, growing ball of abstract energy. Now, can you imagine
what happens when you hold another person's hand? I leave it to
you to explore the expanded adventure of holding a friend’s or
even a stranger’s hands in a state of meditative pixellation.
Pixellation as a
Lifestyle
In summary meditative pixellation is in my opinion, the most basic
form of meditation one can practice. Unlike other meditation
techniques that create ritual oases—specific time zones
dedicated solely to meditation—meditative pixellation is more of
a lifestyle than a technique confined to a specific timeframe.
It involves cultivating a permanent habit of body-directed
awareness.
Make it a lifestyle to always feel
yourself as an abstract flow of energy without reflecting on or
analyzing your experience. Let me massage this message into my
habitual unconscious body with a mantric repetition by telling
it to you: In this ever-ongoing meditation-riff, the goal is to
keep returning to an innocent 'aha' awareness of the feelings
and sensations in your inner body, from head to toe. The aim is
to live a life in what Gurdjieff termed 'constant
self-remembrance,' which implies the constant, effortless return
to a state of self-referential awareness. By engaging with our
inner world, we cleanse the doors of perception and might here
rediscover the infinite oneness of conscious awareness.
This journey begins with a simple act: close your eyes, and
aware what unfolds.
Here at the end, let me reveal yet another facet of this living
diamond.
The body pixellates into energy. The energy dissolves into
presence. The presence dissolves into I AM.
I AM - I AM - I AM
Link to Meditative
Pixellation as a
Technique
With warm regards,
Gunnar Mühlmann
gunnars@mail.com
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